….with my phone when I recalled I have to speed post some papers to home and closing time is 2pm. It was 1 pm already.
So I just checked my Gpay to see if had enough balance. I saw more than a 100 k balance when it should not be more than 500. I counted no of digits before decimal and it was infact 6. Today is salary day I know but I attended duty only for 7 days out of 30 working days. I was weakly expecting around 15 to 20 k and may be not even that as my punching card formalities and paper work is not finished yet.
But 20k would have been more than enough for me.
I don’t know if Govt had any role in this or the fact that I mailed my department head and recruitment regarding my mental health because of recent loss of an important person from my life and harrasment by last employer for asking resignation and my contention regarding gratuity.
I say last employer but it’s still Govt that was the main employer.
I mentioned the slow pace of work here and that I even mailed and tagged on X the home minister to consider for EOL.
I asked to guide and gave whatsapp number for communication.
I just said the truth that with my current situation spending 8 hours inside the premise without even mobile phone and not enough mentally stimulating work will not be spent very productively which may have hinted destructively.
I said I am not going home and feel ok staying here.
My department head seems nice but I feel it’s the mention of Home minister Amit Shah as the main reason that resolved the bureaucracy hurdle.
Any way I for the first time wasn’t happy or sad seeing balance in my account.
I just felt energetic enough to write this post.
I haven’t even had lunch or breakfast. Just pills and 2 loafs of bread.
I hurried as I may miss the speed post time. Also today was the last day of my dedit card expiry and I don’t have the newly issued one. Also Jio network here is finicky so cash is must. More at work as phone is not allowed.
Went to ATM. Withdrew some cash and then was able to do the speed post 15 minutes early.
But all that time I was wondering where did it come from. I have QR on my site so that made me more doubtful.
I first thought AP. But that would not have been inspiring for me. Then Many others but that would have been non inspiring as well. If it is Charity I will return I thought.
I could not check while sitting on toilet as I forgot my online banking password. I had to reset it.
Actually I felt so energetic even empty stomach that I walked 10 km to the beach writing this post and 10 km back so 20 km. Because I work for myself not others. May be that’s why I didn’t earn any positive moolah online. I didn’t knew or couldn’t find anyone to be slave of.
But with Govt I have no choice and I have overworked tremendously for it without demanding any compensation. Even my father who worked as Examiner !! in ordinance factory donated much more than capacity for the meaningless work done there.
If working for Govt is unavoidable then I should work for the highest Govt online or offline which is God.
In fact every one should. I read Oscar Wilde’s Essay on The Soul of a Man Under Socialism. He said world hate individualism because of what I also deduced which is public opinion that is to be discarded as it is an ignorant crab mentality. One himself don’t try and don’t let other try either and it becomes an endless trap.
It was always the subject matter of thought for deep and not shallow thinkers. His thought or rather my thought quite resonates with his. Only difference is he was Gay.
Individualism is not a concept. It is evolution. So early adoption of it was through people like Christ who endured great pain for it. But that was not his teaching. He had no other choice than to reject whole society. Worship of pain to achieve it is not what he intended. Or what some call it Sadhna.
It is because of this limited understanding individualism is not able to evolve. Sure if there are no machines to do demeaning and degrading work like in Greek or Renaissance, keeping slave was only way to somewhat achieve it in thought or Arts. Privatization is modern day equivalent of that. But it is very inefficient.
Because not everyone’s core desire is to build industries or be a business tycoon. Most of them are in it because of influence. I am not saying there should be no industries. Those who want to own private properties should be free to do so. But I don’t see it as the natural course of evolution.
So most if allowed to opt would gravitate towards automation and free access to basic amenities like food clothing and shelter.
Privatization that help enable this is the ideal way. In other words Voluntary socialism is the way but it needs lecture on individualism more importantly than criticism.
Startups in India are trying to emulate western capitalism. It will not work here.
He says the best Government for Artist is no government at all. The state is to make what is useful and the individual is to make what is beautiful.
Just as Google has taken monopoly over not spam on Internet.
Disney’s website account url is showing Black Hat SEO as title because of 100s of that anchor text links done by someone. He must be really hating Mickey mouse or more probably Google. Mickey is adorable.
I would like to propose something to Google. Why don’t you come suck my balls then do whatever you want. No chance for SMB means no chance for expertise and everyone have some expertise.
I don’t have problem with Govt taking monopoly over God. There is no better drug of masses than religion in a poor country. But the Govt itself refuse to take it. Just the necessary. That’s why I made this site. It’s good Alcohol Govt. Ram khumari it is called.
Money is important but once you have established the highest authority as God even for Govt you should vacate that position. Let God be your guide.
Did I tell you that my favorite dish in Guwahati was cold water and worst was non veg. Because they still have animal sacrificing rituals.
Earth Quakes are reverberation of the epicenter. ~Goosebumps
Lastly I don’t need to be hinted whoever had a role or not had a role in this but if you are reading this don’t give me money. Give me EOL instead. I can last this for a year if EOL is given. Otherwise I still won’t come until I get better. Homey Bhabha I will be.